I had a rush of terror, realizing i'd forgotten my account info... thanketh the lord for le google.
Lately, I've been sad again. Not as in previous posts, but the feeling is that I'm standing on a street corner, and all around me life is rushing by.... my life... and no matter how I try to jump in, I cant leave the spot i'm standing in. I see colour, but sounds are muted. Persons pass me bar, like I'm transparent, and I cannot reach out, and connect through touch. How does one become a bystander in their own life?
"compromise?" Little by little letting go bits of soul to allow for a better fit in the society we're based in?
I think my life s a circus of melancholic emotion.... whether I like it or not, these sad feelings are a part of me.
What 'd like, is for someone, anyone, to pick up an interest in me. Instead of my initiating conversation, and being caring, a listening ear, a wellspring of witty repartee, I'd like someone to be that, for me.
Ktalie
